A excerpt from the past..

I wrote this almost two years ago and found it in one of my journals as I was cleaning today. There’s a second part that I’ll post tomorrow. It really is crazy to see how far things have come and how our thoughts change over the years…

Wherever you may be…right now as I write this I’m somewhere in the world sitting at the beach. The sun is shining through the clouds, the ocean breeze is running across my body. I hear the sound of birds as they fly through the sky. It’s the first time I’ve been to the beach alone and for myself in years. I feel as though I could get used to this feeling. I’ve been wanting to write to you for a while now. not knowing who you are, where you’re at in life, and where we’ll be in life by the time you read this. I wonder if we’ll read these together or if you’ll have found them online where I plan to publish for the world to witness. And by world I mean you… because you are my world. Cheesy I know but I just had too. I feel as if the world we live in today pressures everyone around to go to college, find a reliable job, get married, and start a family in order to define the road we take for a happy and successful life. I’ve lived a quiet and simple life all these years. My favorite pastime being to search for music I’ve never heard and listen to the various sounds as they enter my soul. Fun fact.. just hearing a little bit of a song and I’m able to sing along or at least hum the song even if I’ve never heard the song before. Not with 100% accuracy but it’ll get you thinking I’ve at least heard the song before even though I may not have. There are many different paths that we can seize. The one I’ve taken up until this point in my life has made me realize that I’m on a roller coaster that just keeps on going up. Would you like to join me?

Time is precious

The past three weeks have been some of my favorite days. Spending time with you and the little one. Although we did not get to spend Christmas and the new years together we did share some unforgettable moments of our own. Lounging around, enjoying the company of each other, sharing our own gifts that we got each other since we couldn’t celebrate the holidays together, and then of course shopping together.

When I see your smile it always seems to light up my world. Like snowflakes falling from the clouds the beauty that is your existence completely shows when you smile. I find myself thinking about you and the little one and missing the two of you as my days go on even more. I can only say that each moment that I get to spend with the two of you is something that I cherish deeply and whole heartedly.

My kind of love

You know.. for the longest time I would stray away from thinking about what love is. I was heartbroken for a time. I thought.. I knew what love was when I was younger. But little did I know that years later I would finally know in my heart what love would come to truly mean for me. Love is not defined by one specific moment in time but happens over the course of many days and nights shared between two beautiful human beings. I found that loving someone does not mean that you have to put up with the things that you dislike about each other. Love comes with a plethora of emotions that we go through on a daily basis. Love is a series of unforgettable moments that transpire when you least expect them too. Love is looking into another human being’s eyes and seeing the beauty in a color you haven’t previously been fond of. Love is thinking about someone and asking how their day is going regardless of how mundane or how many times you’ve heard the same thing over and over again. Love is having the willingness to come out of your comfort zone when you’re with your special someone. Love is finding joy in the other person’s excitement when you yourself know the things they do may not always be the most exciting. Love is in the small things that you enjoy doing with that person such as caressing their face or running your hands through their hair until they fall asleep after they have had a long and stressful day. Seeing them stressed but unwilling to talk about it at the moment so you decide to give them a little shoulder massage. Helping them with their menial tasks so they can take a breather. When you realize that you love someone, that you truly appreciate their existence in your life then the whole world dims in comparison to your special person. My special person is you, it took me a while for me to realize that I love you, and you may not love me. But that’s okay because I’m going to keep on loving the person that you are. Because you are absolutely unequivocally wonderful in my eyes.